Leaping Before Looking by phoenix.writing

17 Jan

Lindsay’s mother thought that she was completely mental.  From the moment that she had heard about the plan—and Lindsay had had sense enough to call only after she had bought the plane ticket and given up her apartment—she had said that it was the stupidest thing that Lindsay had ever done and she was going to rue the day that she had ever met David.

She had a successful career, Lindsay’s mother had pointed out.  She was in middle management with every indication that if she kept at it, she would end up at the top, six figures a year, an expense account, and a month of vacation.  How could she even be thinking of giving that up?

Lindsay had known that her mother would never understand, but she had nevertheless tried to explain.  Lindsay liked money, of course she did, but she was working seventy-hour weeks and she had woken up one morning and realized that she was miserable.  She barely had time to see her friends, never met anyone, and if she wound up with all this money completely alone, what the hell was the point?

Her mother had blamed David.  Had said that he was a bad influence and Lindsay would never have been thinking any of this without him.  Lindsay gave up trying to explain that these thoughts were the reason she’d gone out that night to the bar determined to let loose, and that was when she had met David and fallen head over heels in love.  He was vibrant and alive and went after what he wanted, and it was wonderful.

Lindsay was tired of all of it, and when her mother actually told her that she was just going through one of those phases, like Lindsay Lohan and those girls, Lindsay had lost it.  If there was one thing that drove Lindsay completely bonkers, it was those half-glances and extra looks until people everywhere had worked out that Lahann was not actually the same thing at all as Lohan.  It wasn’t Lindsay’s fault that they were the same height, had the same body type, and actually bore a vague resemblance.  It wasn’t her fault that she’d always looked young for her age so no one believed that she was a decade older than the other woman.  Lindsay always tried to ensure that her hair colour and style was different from the actress’s, but sometimes it was difficult to keep up.

The UK was better for that.  Fewer people knew who Lindsay Lohan was—and fewer people even asked the name of the book shop clerk, so it didn’t come up nearly as often.

Her mother had turned out to be right, as it happened, about David; it hadn’t taken him long to get involved with someone else, and he had scarpered as soon as he learned that she was pregnant; Lindsay—though she’d never admitted this to her mother—wanted to know what the hell he’d thought he was doing, marrying a woman when he had ethics and an attention span like that.

But it was better that he be out of her life completely than be unreliable when it came to Jessica.

It was true that the six-figure job would offer Jessica advantages that she wasn’t necessarily going to get when her mother was on a store clerk’s salary.  But this way, Jessica actually got to know her mother because she was home more than an hour a week.  It wasn’t easy being a single mother, but for the first time in a long time, Lindsay felt that she was where she was supposed to be.


9 Responses to “Leaping Before Looking by phoenix.writing”

  1. jadamthwaite January 17, 2010 at 9:34 pm #

    I really like the way you managed to properly work all the details of the character outline in here, giving her the ending as a store clerk but without dwelling too much on that part. I’m glad she got a happy ending too! It’s interesting how (so far at least) we have all gone in very different directions with this character.

    • phoenix.writing January 23, 2010 at 9:35 pm #

      Thanks. That’s me and those happy endings, lol. ^_^

  2. ingridfnl January 17, 2010 at 9:44 pm #

    i like the build up of her frustration. oh and it is hell when mothers are right. thank you for this. i like how the stories so far are playing with the notion of fame and the shared name.

    • phoenix.writing January 23, 2010 at 9:36 pm #

      There are certain things one simply does not want to admit to family, lol. 😉

      It’s hard to resist the name coincidence. ^_^

  3. typicalquirk January 17, 2010 at 9:51 pm #

    I really liked how different your perception and mine were this week. I also liked the idea of Lindsay being so down to earth.

    • phoenix.writing January 23, 2010 at 9:37 pm #

      They did have very different tones, didn’t they? Your Lindsay was also down-to-earth but in a … different sort of way, lol. ^_^

  4. Parenthesized January 17, 2010 at 10:54 pm #

    I actually started writing something that was exactly this route. I enjoy how you handled it.

    • phoenix.writing January 23, 2010 at 9:38 pm #

      Thanks. I feel like if I’d grabbed a part of Lindsay’s life even a few months back, it would probably have come out more like yours. Very interesting. ^_^


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